ON IMPOSTOR SYNDROME.
Let me cut to the chase and get right into the deep dark depths of my soul. I have a serious ongoing battle with an old enemy called impostor syndrome. It comes from this place of lack and scarcity in mindset, and is often developed in childhood. It creates an endless vicious cycle than can cause unnecessary stress and anxiety. Impostor syndrome makes me feel completely inadequate and undeserving of where I am at in life. When I am deep in this spiral of impostor-dome, I constantly compare myself to others. I am quick to find that so-and-so has this-many more years of training and experience than I do - and just look at how pretty she is! Sometimes, even if I successfully complete a task, I immediately search for imperfections in my performance, creating deep self-doubt in my capabilities. Never mind that I have spent countless years studying and practicing and investing time and money into education and building connections and volunteering and interning and getting certificates and BA’s…. it just feels like I have not done enough.
But then, it gets exhausting. While this process of detaching from impostor cycle is by no means an easy fix (full disclosure: it has taken me over a year in therapy plus a lot of time in my shadow work), the only way to continue on in life, is, well, to continue on. I am learning that there is always going to be someone that is more experienced and knowledgable than I am. Especially in the world of yoga. The more classes I teach, I learn that what I have to offer is of real value. I may not know everything there is to know about yoga, but I know that I’ve succeeded if I am able to bring one person closer to a state of peace.
Does this resonate with you?
Repeat this mantra: I AM ENOUGH AND I AM WORTHY.
“I AM ENOUGH AND I AM WORTHY.”
